This kitten got your tongue tied in knots

If you are one of those who wanna see me cry because of all your nonsense. Here you go.

Got teary enough or not? I tried my best to do so already :|

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It takes two hands to clap.

You wouldn't be happy when you see a girl and a guy flirting with each other; either you're jealous or you like that guy. But put yourself in every girls' shoes, when a guy flirts with you.. will you not flirt back?

I don't mean I flirt with every guy I know/see. But maybe to my guy friends? 

Serious enough, I don't flirt with guys who has girlfriend. So.. I don't get why I am getting all those critics and shits from all you bitches. Ain't like I'm flirting with a guy you like, or your boyfriend.

You guys aren't even together yet you're starting to get so possessive. Over what siol?

I do have to admit, I flirt back when guys I'm familiar.

(P.S/ I don't sai-nai. For whoever who say I'm acting cute with my voice, PUHLEASE. I'm not that free for things like that..) But not to the extend of able to make them like/love me. I am not that capable enough.

Tyvm if you think I am so capable to attract guys just by flirting.

I agree that I am quite open-minded. I'm alright with guys whom I'm close with.

I'm okay with telling MY CLOSE FRIENDS (girls + guys) about everything. Like how many times I've shitted today, what's my shit color, my very personal stuffs.. etc.

That only apply if I really treasure you like a good friend. No joke. :)

I don't get why my social circle has to do with these bitches who have to degrade me and start spreading rumors about me and my guy friends. Doing such will only make us becoming awkward. Being awkward, then we'll talk lesser to each other.. meaning I will lose a friend.

So stop being a beeotch! Get a life.

Stop being a jealous pot.

It's alright for being conservative yourself. But.. it's not nice to control people's action.

My life does not belongs to you. Just take good care of your own life.

My life belongs to me. Not yours.

 SUCK ON YOUR THUMBS AND GET A LIFE INSTEAD OF CONTROLLING MINE.

You're just a friend of mine.

I won't change just because of you, dude.

<3 PEACE OUT.

Party crasher, Penny snatcher

Hey peeps!

Tryna rant a bit here and there @ this moment. TMD. Y'all should know that first impression counts and will linger on till the very end. I like people telling me about their first impression about me, but! I really ended up hating it, quite a lot. They would ask questions like:

#1: Are you NOT LOCAL?/ Where are you from?

#2: You Chao-Ah-Lian right?

Urgh! People thinks I am from China. Do I look so cheena to ya gaise? SERIOUSLY.

:( And, what chao ah lian? I am a typical good girl, no joke.

I am not so immature, tyvm.

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Next, I think girls should be exposed to nightlife once awhile. So that they can learn things as they grow up. Of course, you'll need to be at legal age la.

Going to clubs/pubs/bars won't make you a slut, it just depends on how you present yourself. If you act like a total bitch, then you wouldn't be treated respectfully. Simple as that.

Girls should learn how to drink, like serious.

So that when a guy who's scheming to make you drunk, it will be practically a waste of time & effort.

Girls need to know how to play smart and don't act dumb! Acting drunk won't get you to anywhere, unless you really want guys to rape you or something. 

I'm very curious so I'll ask my girls friend whether they would want to go club or drink one day or not.

But a handful of them would tell me, "I would never drink in my life." or "I will never enter a place like this cause I really hate it to the core."

They have many considerations, and I believe that they think before acting more than I do. Serious. You can ask me to go for a drink during a weekday and most likely I'll agree to it.

I respect their decision/mindset. 

I believe that they are good girls and really don't like the place.

But nevertheless, I think "Never" is a very strong word. 

Many things are hard to say, things can and will change. Mostly things won't go as they way we wanted it or planned. You can't plan your life. Life ain't The Sims.

Why don't you try something new since you're young only once?

Just make sure you don't go overboard or get addict like one crazy woman, I guess it's fine.

Girls.. should know their drinking limits also.

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Have you seen girls on the streets vomiting late at night, or shouting in the middle of the night?

I have, a lot of times. 

Spend some time to have fun, but also love yourself and learn how to protect yourself.

Just my two cents worth.

Moments like this should be shared with you♥

Okay, hai people.

I think I am sober now already.

Skipped school because I was super ultra late, and partly because last night was disaster.

Went drinking with colleagues again.

If you're still under peer pressure, you're so over already. Now the new trend; Colleague pressure.

(Okay, was just being random!)

Got a bit more tipsy than usual even though I didn't drink as much compared to the last I drank.

*I'm starting to think that I drink too much already! God. Someone should just kill me now.

So basically, I skipped school (not letting my parents know about it and I am feeling guilty like nobody's business. BECAUSE. I. LIED. YOU. BITCH!), and then I went to see a doctor @Polyclinic which took me like the whole morning and the doctor prescribe wrong medicine for me. God! Please save that doctor, tyvm.

I didn't tell him that I was having flu, I went to see him because of my rash that got infected or something. I don't know la. I think that doctor drunk or something! I wasn't having flu, neither did I mention anything about running nose. -.- Seriously.

Then I headed back to school (which is dumb), just to retrieve my password back. I lost it twice. Shall not explain further if not this post will be like an essay-long. -.- So now I am still in school, but I'm gonna head out to town to workplace, go there sing song and slack. (Y)

BUT I AM STILL FEELING LOUSY NOW. Splitting headache, itchy rashes, hideous finger nail...

Just in need of someone to save me, somehow.

MY SWEET ESCAPE♥

[Edited] - I wonder what I did last night... I have bruises on my legs and body, my lips cracked, and I think I hit something against my mouth that it causes it to be swollen; inside my lips.

Party like it's end of the world ♥

(Look @ my gu niang hair. (Y) Like some 'chun gu' : village woman)

First time to party on 6/7/2011. It's ladies night, baby!

Went with Ahni, Aldi, Jason, and Ah chengzx, and then there's the rest whom I've no clue who they are.
Kaykay should be there with me! ;( But oh well, there's always next time.
Wait till you're 18 babe! \m/

First we went HW, where the guitarists are all-so-handsome! God! Fainting.
And I'd a method where you can get the performers there to talk to you. I ain't sharing! :D In my case, there was this guy who was singing on the stage, and he talked to me! He very handsome too.

I kept on losing in games- even just playing scissors-paper-stone, the most classic game!
But don't play play okay, my drinking was better than those two guys last night hao bu hao? Both drunk like nobody's business. Sibei funny siol~ I can laugh at for months just by thinking bout it. :P

Then we went second round @ Titanium. I realize it's more boring there. It's more packed there, and I realize there's more guys than girls. Why har? -.-
I broke glasses there, like one dui lian (throw face).
People thought I was drunk or something. But it's cause the place very packed can?

Went home late, bathed and slept for bout 2hours?? And went for school already. TIRED.BITCH.

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The aftermath of partying last night? RASHES. Fml!
I don't understand why I will have rashes after that day. I didn't drink something I am allergic to what. Those alcoholic stuff I'd drink before and I didn't had any rashes.
Aiya, don't know leyzx.
IT IS VERY ITCHY THOUGH. FUCKING ITCHY.
I wanna scratch so badly.

Itchy itchy, scratchy scatchy
Up and down, my body body

*Abruptly leaving this post to watch 2ne1 Live on youtube.

Take me to where you are, a place with moon and stars

Whassup gaise! :D

I FUCKING DYED MY HAIR MYSELF AT HOME JUST NOW AFTER SPENDING MONEY FEW WEEKS AGO IN A SALON TO DYE + CUT MY HAIR. 

#FML.

But in the end, still failed. The colour ain't obvious, again.

Just an advice to people out there, NEVER. DYE. YOUR. HAIR. BACK. TO. BLACK. NO. MATTER. HOW. PEOPLE. ARE. FORCING. YOU. TO. You'll regret for your whole life like me.

Insist not to, even if someone puts a knife to your throat.

Your hair will never pick up any colour (obvious) once you dyed your hair black.

Just like mine. My hair is screwed.

 Nevertheless, I tried dyeing my hair with Liese.

Wanted to try yellow brown, but in the end I got orange brown because I am someone with no guts at all. Hahahahaha! Don't laugh at me, you ass.

Had a difficult time with doing it myself. -.- Screwed up, man! But it didn't stink as much as other brands of dye. (Y) I left it for 50 minutes, and the outcome is ... not much changes. God! Someone please save my hair! ;(

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I like guys with strong, charismatic eyes! I like guys with STYLE! I like guys who can sing/rap! I like guys who smile cutely! I like guys with bad boy image but is an instant good boyfriend!

Craving for some TOP & GD moment!

CHIONG. TO. YOUTUBE. NOW!~ ;D

Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday

GOOD. MORNING. EVERY. BODY!!

July is just the beginning peeps! 

Time passes damn quickly this year as well. It seems like I've not enjoy enough. And counting from the last, I've been single for close to a year. Many asked me why I don't get myself involve in a relationship. Someone even asked if I'd converted into a lesbian. Lin lao hia! !@#$%^&* LOL ><

To tell the truth, who doesn't want a boyfriend who can spend his time with you, and be there for you???

Of course I do, singlehood has been close to a year already. Making some changes won't be that bad, I know. I know, really.

But, it doesn't mean I want it means I want it.

Because of past relationships, you'll be taunted by those hurtful memories. You overthink about the future, what will happen if I hurt that guy because of my past, what happens to us if we ended the r/s- will we still able to become friends again etc.

I still fall in love, but.. I lost all courage bout starting a r/s. It's not as easy as it sounds like. You need time, commitments, and the preparation of ditching your friends because of him.

I don't have any of those. I need to go to school, go for work, visit grandfather every week. I can't commit since I've no time. I love my friends, I'd made the wrong move by ditching friends for my guy. 

And lastly, you'll need to find that right guy confessing to you.

That's the most difficult part. &No one has taught/know who is exactly the 'right guy'. You might think that he's the right guy for you, but does he feels that way too? Who knows when he might lost interest in you, and start cheating and lying bout it? What if he's a huge flirt and you can't handle it anymore? What if he hits you, and uses vulgarities when he's mad at you? What if we can't last long? What if he found someone better than you? What iF comparison starts to get involve in the r/s? What if regrets creep in?

What I know is that everything will end, someday.

R/s is one of the hardest to handle after it ends. You miss the important person in your life, you miss the time you guys spend together, the places you visit, and the memories that will keep on haunting you.

You start, you hurt. You end, you hurt. You'll get hurt as long as you start a r/s. 

It will still be a scar when you get over it and move on.

But those scars are beautiful. It makes you stronger independently, but it created another fence for you to jump over to start a new r/s.

P/S: THIS DOES NOT APPLY TO THOSE WHO DOESN'T TAKE R/S SERIOUSLY. :) 

Written in the stars, million miles away

HAI GUISE.

I am still feeling guilty about partial-ing today's class.

I was late, and I partial-ed.

Anywayzx, I guess my dieting plans totally fail. Cause I drank Frappuccino from Starbucks today with whipped cream, and worse with caramel.

One word to describe, 'FATTENING'.

:'(

I'm so fucked right now cause my skin condition is going down slope, since school reopens. #FML.

Still remember when working @Fremantle, my skin is (Y) one lor. Even though my sleeping time is always irregular.

Speaking bout Fremantle, I kinda miss the people I worked with, the dramas and those shit people giving me, those guys who were uber nice to help me out without fail, party animal + sexy angmohs (& some pervy ones), my flings, and free flow of LEMONS from dinesh!

GOD. Missing so much things right now. But I guess a lot of things have changed over there. My flings all ain't working there anymore, where's the fun man?

And I really dislike my jobscope. Seriously~ ME?! Being a hostress? 

DISLIKE. DISLIKE. DISLIKE. DISLIKE. DISLIKE. DISLIKE. DISLIKE. DISLIKE. DISLIKE.

But I hate being waitress even more. Tyvm.

So in the end, I rather end that fun job and stuck my fucking fat ass up to my current job, just mainly for cash & my BFF. No more. Though it used to have another factor why I wanna stay, but now since it's officially 'no more', I'm only left with 2.

Seriously if anything happened, I guess I'm ready to leave anytime. 

I WANNA WATCH HORROR MOVIES!!

LIN LAO HIA.

!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*

All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop
Oh baby tell me why'd you have to go
Cause this pain I feel it won't go away
And today, I'M OFFICIALLY MISSING YOU

Every time I look into your eyes, you make me wanna die

Smiling is too overrated.

Step out of the boring frame and be someone you don't know. ♥

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Sickness is getting into my bones and by the time in July, I would be visiting the hospital much often. Doing body scanning, surgeries; yada yada. Had no choice but to skip school on those days.

I'm feeling damn guilty for being late everyday for school.

I hate myself for growing fatter and prolly that's why strangers keep touching my fat arse.

Shall start dieting & reaching school on time on next Monday!

I've got no idea if it's gonna work, but... never try never know.

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"What would you do if you only have one day to live?"

Seriously, I've never thought about this before ever in my life. Never.

This question really makes me think further. What should I do if my life is ending soon.

• In the morning, I would wake up damn frigging early, bring my parents out for breakfast. Talk a walk in the garden afterwards.
• Spend some time alone, sitting in an European style coffee house, drinking a cup of classic tea listening to some love song.
• Head out with Nikon camera to a garden and snap some memories, by myself in the afternoon. Wearing a maxi and with a big bright yellow sun hat.
• Picnic-ing with my beloved sisters. (What can I say? I really love picnics.) Reminiscing everything bout the memories we'd made together. Dancing around with some awesome music. Take awesome photos, hoping that they'll remember me always.
• Head out for high tea with BFFs. Enjoy a cup of floral scented tea, eating some awesome pastries like macrons! Taking photos together.
• Do something romantic with my boyfriend. (Let's say I have one -.-) Like.. erm. Watching sunset together after cycling. But he'll need to teach me first. Heh. I suck @ sports or sports-related stuff. Tell him how much I love him, and make him promise me that he'll move on and not to cry.
• Have early dinner with my parents & grand father. I shall cook! Okay, not a good idea though. Maybe I can help out? I will do the washing! &Lastly, take a last family photo.
• Drinking + Smoking with a bunch of friends. Since I'm dying, who cares about health?
• Go club. Have threesome.

Okay, I was just kidding bout the last part. Maybe.

LOL.

It's my last day on earth, so why not try something outrageous before I die? Maybe it's a bit extreme.

Oh well.

I know, I've just made this post as though I'm dying soon.

NO! I'm still alive & kickin'! Suck on your thumb bitches~!

PEACE OUT. ♥

Taking double takes in life

If you still do not know my dear, yes I've changed my hairstyle and the hair color.

But FML, it seems like the change of the color didn't change much/ have much difference. I felt as though I was cheated, or something.

And god! Hair stylists really love to cut 'bangs' for me when it doesn't fit my face shape.

Oh well. I was the one who told her to go as she wish. (That's not a brilliant idea at all.)

So in the end, my hair didn't end up as what I expected, like always.

Have you realized that in both pictures above, Siqi's expression never change? :D

Alright.. I guess I will dye my hair again one day. Just you wait, HAIR! Y U so troublesome!?
I'm gonna whip my hair back & forth. I whip my hair back & forth.
I'm getting eggcited with those upcoming plans I'm having with my loved ones.
Awesomezx. :D

"Do I look fat in this dress?" HELL YEAH YOU DO!

Went out early in the morn with ah kay today to dye our hair + cut it.

Seriously need a haircut cause my fringe is so fucking irritating.

So yeah, she's late! & I went to the wrong place, thinking that I came to the right place. -.-

This is still my original hairstyle. I've no idea what color is this, seriously.

It's supposed to be brown, but it looks like lil reddish sometimes. And when you see the photos, it looks like orange under the damn light.

 Anyway, just look at how kiddy I was wearing. Hint hint* That day I went to film.

LOLZX~

I was afraid that some pedophiles will stalk me on my way home from twinnie's.

So yeah, I am supposed to look like a nerd, and I think I manage to achieve that.

Show ya'all another time. I'm still thinking of a way to 'kope' the photos from facebook.

I've got no idea how you save photos from there. Zzzz.

Aiya, me very tired right nowzx.

Shall update again tomorrow or something.

Really had fun today. :)

ENJOYED.