Listen to your heart or brain?

I believe that none of my facilitator for this semester likes me. Reason? Cause I'm always late for their lessons. -.-

Y'know now I don't know what I want, periodically.
It's like 'I want this, but deep down I know I don't need it.' Just like how 'I still like him, but I know I definitely deserves better.'

So lost in life you see. Always contradicting myself and thinking way too much beyond. I really need a change and get a life.