I'll whip my hair back and forth, rocking to the music

Cause when good girls turn bad

You'll only end up blaming themselves

I'm not sure if I'm a good girl, or a girl that's pretending to be good.

Yes, I don't smoke, I don't club, I don't steal etc. But I'm not sure how's the measurements are like, ya know?

I know there are some bitches out there who are badmouthing me, saying that I'm a flirt and so on. But, do you know me enough to say that? Seriously, bitches! Get a life.

True enough that sometimes whatever I wanna do makes people think that I've changed- to a chao-ah-lian or whatever shitzx. Especially with my bad temper and low tolerance.

There are many things that I yearn to do, yet I can never do it.

Because of people's expectations of me. They expect me to be a good girl, and not do things like this. Good example; make up. People urge me to stop loading make up on myself because they stereotype that chao-ah-lian do their make ups like how I am doing.

Coming back to what I really wanna blog about! :-)

These are things that I wanna learn/do but however I couldn't because of your expectations and stereotyping.

#1: Skateboarding

Really wanna learn how to skateboard. I find it way cool, and it's like.. awesome.

#2: Tongue Piercing

Goddamn this! I freaking want this so badly ever since secondary school.

But I couldn't do it, because people don't let me.

"Spoil image", "Chao-ah-lian" and so on.

I even thought of what studs I wanna have when I pierce it.

Sick!

#3: Crazily-done hair style/highlights

Really as crazy as these kind; don't you think it's sorta pretty?

Who bloody cares if it doesn't freaking suits me?! It's just freaking cool to have highlights like these. But I am not allowed to do so.

#4: Clubbing every week

Socialize, I call that. Or just simply having fun with a group of close friends where you guys dance, get wasted and spend the whole time together afterwards.

Till now, I have curfew; more like I need/expected to reach home before 11pm.

What?! I am 18 in just 2 more days.

But most prolly I won't club as much because I prefer just drinking.

#5: Tattoo

I freaking love tattoos recently, not all types though.

I especially love those at collar bones, I find them freaking amazing and cool.

If I am allowed to get a tattoo, I might get something like this.. or just meaningful words on my collar bone.

It's a piece of art okay?

#6: Smoking

Recently keep having the urge to try out smoking.

Especially when I got hold onto my lighter, it's like being cursed.

If I am able to get cigarettes that are in pink color like the above, I will definitely smoke one.

No joke.

&Can you see what's written on the cigarette box?! It says "Rose flavor"!!!

Whereas the black colored cigarette box says "Chocolate flavor"!

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Though these are some of what I am yearning for, these are also some things that I am not allowed to do so. And sadly enough, I am someone who listens to what people expects me to do.

I am not trying to be a bitch/chao-ah-lian, trust me. :-)